Update

So, life...life is in a slump right now.

I say "um" too much, because I am never sure of anything these days, and "um" fills in when I have something I want to say but can't find the right words because my brain is focussed elsewhere.  

On the plus side,

I am getting really excited about the future, especially now that I have decided on a major!

Are you ready for this?

 Major in Communications with an emphasis in Public Relations.

phew.

I can't wait to get started on college.

As far as media goes, in the future, I feel like most of my focus will be put into my personal blog.

I am going to work and my first purchase will be a good camera, because I find that taking pictures relaxes me and helps me appreciate everything that surrounds me.

It also makes my blog posts more interesting.  

2 days, to days

I have learned the past few days that it doesn't matter what anyone else does,  those things shouldn't affect me. 

I need to remember this as I go into sterling scholar interviews on Wednesday. 

I can't determine who my competition is and how well they do in their interviews, the only thing that should matter is that I do my best and present what I have with confidence. 

Nonetheless, my stomach is in a constant state of knot-iness 

(not naughtiness, although the huge bowl of ice cream I just ate begs to differ.)

and I find myself having personal interviews inside my mind.

Psh, I guess that is what watching a whole bunch of news will do to a person. 

There still haven't been any tears, and I think with some rigorous training through practice questions I will feel prepared enough by Wednesday...

eek...

That is in 2 days. 

The Vow (not the chick flick version)

I usually blame this winter stupor on the snow, but seeing as how there is no snow I feel like it stems from something else. I am not depressed, that does not do this feeling justice. I am just...through.

Here we go, I am about to abandon everything that has been holding me back.

I don't care if I look like a jerk, I refuse to do anyone else's work.

The funny thing is, that doesn't even make me look like a jerk, it only makes me feel like one.

I am getting rid of that perception.

 Time to focus on ME, on doing the things that I want to do.

I am going to stop being afraid to show my inner thoughts and desires.

No more cookie-cutter work.

 I need to use the things that drive my emotions and incorporate them into my work.

 I need to tell myself that it is okay if the project doesn't turn out how I expected it, because that is just something to learn from.

I need to find a niche and focus on that until I produce a product that I am completely happy with, that I am wanting to share.

I am sick of being pushed around by myself.

From here on out, I am going to put my whole soul into creating things that honestly show

who

I am.

Dance Video

Today I planned my dance company video, well actually I just worked with experimental lighting.The shadow on the floor made my legs look short and distracted my eye from the dancer.  I did like the sun behind so that part of the dancer is silhouetted, and I also liked the shadow on the wall.

 Here is what I want to accomplish with this video:

I want the mood to be edgy and pull people through, grasping their attention until the last second.
I want to use the seniors on dance company.
I want to have music that is not mainstream, but that people can still relate to (something edgy and...hmmm....sexy? for lack of a more appropriate word).
I want people to finish watching and have a desire to come to the concert.

Plan:

Tonight I will find a song and plan how the people will transition through it.
I will talk to the dancers on Thursday, and learn how to use the camera.
Filming will take place Wednesday and Friday of next week.

I also got the basketball program that has my pictures that I took (using the rebel...) in it. I will add that to my portfolio for sterling scholar to bring in and show the judges during my interview.

White AND Colored, because I am not racist.

This past week I have been working on my Sterling Scholar portfolio, which has not only been a gigantic pain, but also an eye opening experience. I didn't realize that I had so many leadership and service experiences going for me. I am glad I went through and marked out all of the times I have helped/led people, because now it will be easier to write essays for other scholarships.

Now you may ask, "How does multimedia relate to your portfolio?"

Let me tell you.

Firstly, I had to format and type up all of my pages for the portfolio. I used photo shop to create the headers and Microsoft Digital Image Pro 9 to format my pictures, words, and text all together. I was frustrated wishing that I had better quality programs to work with, but I learned that even with crappy programs I can produce good quality work depending on how much effort I put into it.

I spent time collecting photographs, typing up my answers to the questions, crying over loss of food and sleep, and compiling it all together!

Today I worked on a collage of pictures, just for fun. It took me about fifteen minutes. I really like colors against the white background.

Rainbow Child

One Man Band

Asians, raising the bar...always.

Human Color Pallette

(Side note: Anna is my best friend. and we are moving out together and going to UVU in the fall. Can't wait. We are currently working on getting a goldfish and a cactus for our basement apartment.)

Happy Friday!

oh-so-productive

Today I worked on web design. I hand coded two web pages off of a template. Through doing this I was able to refresh my memory on what tags to use for basic functions. This benefited me since I have been working in Dreamweaver and Fireworks lately, and they don't require hand coding.
 I specifically worked on framing a web pages, adding tables, making lists, and adding images.
By refreshing these skills, I am hoping to be able to start coding a web site
for my dad's business, because I will have to have several frames to help the flow of the design, as well as tables to show the pictures of his projects and past sells, and images for the actual design part of the website.

I also was prepping to be talent on a show that didn't end up running because our audio was having issues.

However, it wasn't the only thing having issues.

From these experiences today I learned that no matter how hard you try and how much effort you put into something, there will always be an outside source that will affect the result of your work.

 More often than not this outcome is not a desirable one, but hey, who cares?

Oh yeah, just my parents.

Bye